NaNoWriMo Update!

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It’s day 3 of Camp NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month). My goal: 30,000 words in 30 days. I have 2460 right now, and in order to keep on schedule I need to make it to 3000 before I go to bed. 

I’m writing a play, and it’s nowhere near perfect, but that’s what NaNoWriMo is all about. It’s about getting it all out there and down on paper. It can be absolutely horrible as long as you keep at it because you can always go back and revise. I look at NaNoWriMo as a way to build up perseverance and to get used to writing on a daily basis. It’s a goal with a deadline, which is exactly what I need to stay motivated during this rough patch, also known as post-grad life. 

My biggest issue with sticking to one piece of writing for a long period of time is my lack of love for the characters and the story. The good news is, after one scene and 10 pages, I can say that I am completely in love with these characters. It was almost as if they formed themselves. They’re developing nicely and I’m excited about them and I can’t wait to continue with them in this journey. That’s how I know I may actually achieve my 30,000 word goal. I’m really, really into what I’m writing. At this point, it doesn’t matter if anyone else would be interested in the story. I love it and it makes me want to write more and that’s what it’s all about. 

It helps that one of the characters is based on someone from my past, someone who had a big influence on my life. I hadn’t thought about this particular someone in a long time. It’s one of those people who changes your world and then you lose touch with them and it later feels like they were never there. But something made me think of this person and I decided that their impact on me shouldn’t be forgotten, because it meant so much to me at one point. So I’m writing this person in as a sort of tribute. A ‘thank you’ of sorts. To say hey, I haven’t forgotten about you. Maybe I’ll even let the person read it once I’m finished. But maybe not. There’s something tragically elegant about a person never knowing how important they were to someone. 

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Camp NaNoWriMo

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I’m going to try Camp NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) this year. It takes place through the months of April and July. I haven’t decided on a word count goal yet. I think I’ll just try to write as much as I can and save the strict deadlines for November. I’ve graduated from college and only work part time, so I have no excuses. I’ve never made it through NaNoWriMo, but this is my year. With so few obligations, I know I can do it if I set my mind to it. I’ve been doing so well with my weight loss goals (26 pounds in 3 months), and writing is something I love to do. I have a concept in mind for what I want to write, but I’m still trying to get it to all come together. I’m planning on starting before I go to bed so I don’t lose motivation. 

I’m brainstorming now and I think I’ve pretty much decided that I’m going to write a play. It’s easier and more fun and I’m less likely to get stuck that way. 

Anyone else participating in Camp NaNoWriMo? Good luck! We can do this!

Check out some of my tips for writers.

Tuesday

I stumbled and fell on a rainy Tuesday morning, coffee in hand, and you weren’t there to help me up and grab my cup up off the ground before your eyes met mine and we shared a moment that we’d always remember and eventually tell our children about because in that moment we both knew we were staring at our soul mate. No, you weren’t there. Instead I pulled myself back up and pulled my hair back out of my eyes and choked back the tears that threatened to escape, not because I was hurt or because I fell but because of the culmination of events that lead to a fall in the middle of the city on my way to an important meeting at a job that I hate with a boss that I hate and the only thing that could have made it better is you. I don’t know you yet. Or maybe I do. It’s February and you know what that means—I’m wearing a red top under my blazer and I even brought out my lacy red panties for special occasions but no one will see them, not on the 14th or anytime soon, but with the holiday looming so close I feel festive and optimistic, like maybe you’re waiting for me right around the corner and when I see you I’ll know and so will you. But for now, I brush off my skirt and continue down the sidewalk with no coffee, a bruised ankle, and a knockout smile because the corner approaches quickly and if I’m scowling or upset you may keep walking, no double take or second glance or hesitation, moving right on by the girl of your dreams and we’ll never know. It’s the never knowing that scares me the most.

Wedding Dresses and Underage Boys

It’s been a rough few days. I was supposed to have 4 days off work last week but got called in 2 of those days. It’s now been 5 days since I’ve had a day off, which would be normal if I had a real job, but it’s difficult when it’s a part-time job where I’m on my feet for 6-8 hours and dealing with awful customers. Almost all customers are awful when you work at a grocery store. I promise it’s true. No one likes grocery shopping so most people are unhappy while they’re there and decide to take it out on people like me and it’s not fun. So I’ve been pretty stressed, and in what little free time I’ve had, I’ve spent looking for a new job that doesn’t make me want to commit mass murder. 

When I’m stressed, I find it hard to watch real TV shows, so I’ve been watching a lot of mindless TLC reality shows, mainly, the wedding shows. I’ve caught wedding fever. I don’t want to get married anytime soon, and in fact, the thought of spending my life with one person forever is terrifying and not at all appealing. But I want the big sparkly dress and the day that’s all about me. In the process of all this wedding stuff, I fell in love with a dress. It’s “the one,” I know it. Now I just have to find the other “one,” aka, the groom. 

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It’s a Tara Keely dress by Lazaro, style number 2056. Love love love it. 

While on the subject of marriage and dating, I should tell you guys that I got asked out on a date last night. Yep. This is the second guy I’ve turned down this year. I’m feeling pretty great about myself right now, not gonna lie. Really, though, this one didn’t stand any sort of chance and I don’t know what he was thinking. He’s a new guy at work named Preston (I hate that name). We worked together for the first time last night and we were closing. Our registers were the two that are across from each other so we got to talk a bit and somehow ended up being playful with each other, which comes off as flirting. And, okay, maybe I was being a bit flirty. I can’t help it, I’m a natural. It’s what I do. I’m like Captain Jack Harkness. “I was just saying hello!” “For you, that’s flirting.” 

At one point, he was distracting me and I messed something up. When the customer left, I told him it was all his fault, and he was like, “let me make it up to you by taking you out to dinner.” It was such a smooth line and so out of nowhere. I was taken aback. I said no, because 1. he’s 18 and I’m 22, 2. he’s a junior in high school and I’m a college graduate, and 3. I’m not attracted to him. Not that I’d go out with him if I were attracted to him. But still. It was a nice little ego boost, and good for him for being bold enough to see something he wants and to go for it. If only we could all be that way. We’d probably get a lot further and do a lot more, even if it did come with an increase of embarrassment. I’ve wanted to make big bold moves so often, I’ve even planned them out, but I can never follow through with most of them. When I do, they backfire which just discourages me from future attempts. But this kid didn’t seem at all discouraged. He was completely cool about it and will probably have no trouble being bold with other girls. So, good for him. 

This week, I’m going to challenge myself to make just one bold move. I don’t know what it will be yet, but hopefully I’ll follow through with it and won’t chicken out. Maybe it’ll become a new thing where I make one bold move a week. Maybe. 

Day 30: Names!

30. What are your top 10 favorite names? List 5 boy names and 5 girl names.

This is going to be so hard to narrow down. But I made this challenge so I think it’s ok if I break the rule and list more. I love love love names. I keep my favorites on a sticky note on my laptop. (like, Stickies on Mac, not an actual sticky note). Not for baby names or anything because I don’t think I want kids. Mainly for characters in my writing. Some of these will come with middle names.

Boys:

  • Tucker
  • Elijah
  • Nathaniel Sebastian (I like them separately, but even more together)
  • Matthew Oliver (this one has a significance to me but I won’t explain) 
  • Noah
  • Julian
  • Jay
  • Patrick
  • Benji
  • Tobias/Toby
  • Josiah 
  • Micah (I also like this for a girl) 
  • Teddy

Girls: 

  • Luciana (from my favorite Shakespeare play) 
  • Eloise/Lousie/Lou
  • Poppy
  • Wendy Lane (there’s a street near my house called Wendy Lane and I love it)
  • Lane 
  • Charlie
  • Annabelle 
  • Millie
  • Margo
  • Aubree
  • Dakota
  • Harper
  • Annette 
  • Colby
  • Penelope/Penny
  • Emeline
  • Evangeline
  • Jeanne
  • Beatrice 

And if I ever write twin characters, their names will be William and Winifred, or Will and Winnie for short, because precious. 

These aren’t even all the names on my list, I shortened it. I just adore names and choosing a name for a character is sacred for me, because it sets up their whole personality. You can’t name a character Margo and not have her be eccentric. Of course, names don’t define real people or determine their personalities, but I’m a firm believer that if you give your kid a boring name, they’re a bit more likely to turn out boring. 

Day 29: Celebrities

29. Have you ever met a celebrity?

I’ve met:

Will Pugh ❤

The members of Family Force 5

The members of Carolina Liar

Steven Spielberg!! (I was a kid and don’t remember, but I have his autograph)

That’s all I can think of, but I’m sure I’ve met more. No one crazy big (except Spielberg, of course). More band members than people I’d actually consider “celebrities.” But I hope to meet many more!

Big changes!

I’ve made some huge changes lately, starting with losing 26 pounds since January 1st. That’s the current number and I couldn’t be happier. Every week I come closer and closer to my goal. I look and feel so much better and for the first time I can envision myself sticking with this healthy lifestyle and getting to the size I want to be. 

Another pretty huge change: I chopped all my hair off! Not all of it, but most of it. It’s much different from what I’m used to. I haven’t had hair this short since 8th grade, and I hated it back then. But I had really low self esteem, so I hated most things about my appearance. I also didn’t know what to do with short hair. It’s still going to take some getting used to, but I know how to work it now.

Here’s a before picture to give you an idea of how big of a change this was for me: 

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And now: 

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This is how I’ll probably wear it to work and when I want to look girly and put together and whatnot. And these are a few edgier/sassier/more me looks:

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Just sort of messy and crazy, two words that describe me very well. I also want to curl it soon because I think that would look cute. 

Yay for big life changes! Now if only I could find a new job, because mine is driving me absolutely crazy. 

What kind of big changes do you guys hope to make? Remember, just because we’re three months into the year doesn’t mean you can’t make resolutions for yourself. I’m constantly revising and updating mine and it’s working for me. Don’t wait until January 1st to decide to take control of your life and make a change!